Holy Crap, it is Finally Here!

One day several years ago a friend of mine believed in me and my music. Looking back it is cool to see the sovereign hand that has been on this process. There has been times of doubt, questioning whether this dream that I have developed was centered around the will of my Father. Over the past three years, I have been raising funds to cut a record. Through the generosity of my family and some close friends, God has given me the opportunity to work on this project. Coming into one of the final stages, the actual recording, it is nice to look back on the last three or four years and see what I am learning. I am learning perseverance, sovereignty, and faith. This project has been on my mind for the last five years but I go through stages of doubt. The sweet taste of knowing the will of God that was once tattooed to my lips comes and goes like the high school crushes that I witness week in and week out. Thoughts like; am I doing this for me, am I skilled enough, how am I going to pull this off, are my songs the best they can be, are these the songs that need to be on the album, have been running through my head for the past couple of years. Even in the times where I have felt so inadequate, there has been something deep down in my heart telling me to keep going. Faith. You see, there has been several times when I doubted, when selfish desires have polluted the dream, when I have thought this record would give me worth. As I write and get my thoughts down on paper it is exciting to rediscover the spring of my worth. I pray that I can take myself out of this project completely. The reality is I am inadequate. This is where sovereinty comes in. Without my friend Matt, my wife and family, all the musicians on the record, without the very hand of God this would not be possible.

The answer is......I am inadequate! Inadequacy is how we should live our lives. Once we sit back and become dependent we will truly discover life. I am learning that it takes faith and perseverance to reach a place of dependency. Dependency is not necessarily a weakness, it should the way of life.

Sorry for the long post but I am filled with excitement. One week from today I leave for Phoenix, the mexican food haven of the world, to begin recording my record. I am so thankful for this oppertunity that has been so graciously given to me. If you think about it, please pray for me this next couple of weeks. Please pray that I can keep focused on things that are righteous. Pray that God will bless all of the people in my life that He has used and is using to make this project happen. Holy Crap, it is finally here!